I can't not write. I tried it for a while and it turns me into an ogre. I'm much happier when I own up to the truth that I'm a writer and go from there. It's the discipline that's my downfall. I struggle to stick to one project at a time. Which is okay-ish when it's fanfic, but not so helpful when it's work. There's a reason behind Jae's diary project... shame that the muse doesn't seem to have gotten the message.