T minus... 541

Series: T minus...
Rating: PG-13
Character: Jaejoong
Summary: Jaejoong keeps a diary during his enlistment...

541

I'm used to living under a microscope. I'm used to living under a microscope. We all are and I keep telling myself that over and over. I'm used to living under a microscope. I'm used to being on display 24/7.

Sometimes it would be nice if I could be in public from sunrise to sundown and just be myself. It would be nice if I could do or say what I want without considering first how it will reflect on the others, on the company, on the way people see us, see me. On the way people judge us.

Keeping my face blank and my mouth shut is especially tricky when people shove news in my face. Yoochun having dinner in some fancy ramen place after filming. Junsu gearing up to battle cyber bullies. Yunho enlisting in a fortnight. Changmin passing his police exams. Sometimes, hiding under a rock or becoming a hermit on a mountain sound like a great idea.

I want to react, but then… is it unreasonable to want to keep just a tiny piece of myself just for myself?

All previous entries.

Always With Me

Title: Always With Me
Rating: PG-13
Length: Oneshot
Characters: Changmin, Yunho
Summary: Changes are looming, but they've learned over the years to be each other's strength.

A/N: Set between the last Tokyo stage (after which Yunho went to support BoA, and Changmin hung out with Kyuline) and last weekend's SMTown concerts in Tokyo, where Changmin had to face the red ocean by himself. Just me noodling around, emoshinki.

( Always With Me )

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• Tue, 18:49: This made me smile and think of Theo, @KatePavelle! :-) https://t.co/SisBZfsoOj
• Tue, 18:51: "Tell me what happened," Jack requested. "Do I need to put someone's head through the wall?" #Ghosts #suspense